Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

DAY SIX : EMBRACE LONELINESS

Sunday, October 6, 2013




There's a deep, grumbling hunger in your heart to be acknowledged, known, accepted, and loved.

Do you feel it right now?

Some days the cry isn't as loud, and you are able to get through the day's tasks without dwelling. Other days, the cry is loud and it feels so deep it consumes you — your mind seems to continuously bring you to a state of loneliness. Happy friendships and couples and families seem to surround you, and you just feel all alone.

In those moments, we tend to suppress those feelings and equate it with weakness, or conclude there is a glaring flaw in us that deems unlovable. But that moment your loneliness becomes evident, and one day it will, it doesn't mean you're weak, and it isn't an opportunity for you to mull over your flaws. It's an invitation from the Lord to meet him in deep intimacy and find healing.

Embrace it.

I know. That sounds fearful and daunting — and straight-up weird. Aren't we always told to conceal and control our pain with food, alcohol, and willpower? In moments of pain, and in this case, loneliness, going closer to where it hurts seems like the worst thing to do, but your need to be known and loved was made by God, and only He can fully and permanently meet that need. You must find where it hurts and let yourself go in that space.

DAY FIVE : SHARE A LITTLE LOVE

Saturday, October 5, 2013


When we know we are loved by God, we can freely share the love onto others, too.

What does that look like?

I presume it looks a bit like this:

Share a little bit of your love, my friend,
Share a little bit of your love.
Share a little bit of your love, my friend,
And it will come back to where it began.
And watch it grow (watch it grow),
watch it grow (oh, watch it grow),
Watch it grow to where it touches every land.
Help it grow (help it grow), help it grow (oh, help it grow),
Help it grow by only reaching,
Reaching out to someone your hand.

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We are now on day five of this series, and I realize it is SO, SO, SO difficult to blog daily. However, his mercies are new every morning.. and hopefully there will be EXTRA mercies for this new week! Oh Lawd have mercy. 

Happy Saturday, folks!

*See the entire series here.

DAY FOUR : WHISPERS

Friday, October 4, 2013


I think living out of our belovedness means to know and believe that God loves us — every part of us, all the time. 

I think we believe God loves us for the potential we have, or for those few and far in between times we act "obedient" and "lovable." I think we believe God loves us for who we will become, and that he is simply tolerating who we are now. 

And while it is true that God is pruning you and shaping you to be more like him and to have a heart that moreso resembles his, he loves you infinitely, now. Even at this exact moment. 

He loves you when a curse word slips out of your breath, or when you cheat on that hard exam, or when your thoughts are consumed with idolatry and bitterness. He loves you when you fall into yet another unhealthy relationship, when you oversleep, or when you talk back to your parents. He loves you when you're failing and everything you do seems to go wrong. He loves you then.

Not only does God love you in those moments, but he also loves you the SAME amount as when you THINK you are "obedient" and "lovable." Like when you're serving His children, reading the word, or practicing patience, His love is the same. His love is constant and unchangeable. 

Do you believe that? 

It's true — and not only true in the vaguest and most universal way, but also in the most unique and personal way to you. God's love is for you. You just gotta grab it. Not just once, not just twice. Not just on Sundays. But every day, every hour. Every time it seems the world is telling you you are not enough — not pretty enough, not smart enough, not good enough — that's when you need to grab it most.

Hush those worldly voices and listen to the one and only's voice that matters. Because every day, every hour, he is actively whispering love into your soul. Do you feel it?

*FIND THE ENTIRE SERIES HERE.

DAY ONE : THE GREATEST LOVE

Tuesday, October 1, 2013



Welcome to the first of "31 DAYS OF BELOVEDNESS." 
(I talked about it a bit here.) 

There are just some things, or more specifically, truths, I want more of in my life. Things I want to learn, understand, soak, and this month it's about our belovedness. I'm not here to educate or preach, I'm here to walk and wrestle and chew — and I invite you into the process.

This is day one.


I wanted to start the series just by acknowledging who we are, children of God, and praising the only one who can give us that identity. 

The song is "TIl I see you" by Hillsong. An involuntary groan comes out when I listen to these lyrics. It is the current echo of my heart:

The greatest love that anyone could ever know

That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come

And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You

I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

You are the voice that calls the universe to be

You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all

You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name
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Ps. Happy October 1st! Swing by to IN ITS TIME to see my blog featured for her monthly button swap. Show her some love while you're there. (: She's one sweet, sweet lady.

31 DAYS OF BELOVEDNESS

Monday, September 30, 2013


Last week, life was messy. Both literally and emotionally.

I didn't feel like myself at all. There is a part of me that desperately wanted to erase last week and be extra rigid for the next; to plan out every hour and fill every white space in my planner, to clean my desk, organize my inbox, color-code something, anything. Fix something. But I'm trying to fight that control freak in me, the part of me that wants to play god, and just embrace the messiness. Embrace it because this is life, too. 

I like to blog when life looks good, and blogging is an avenue to express my gratitude and passion for the little joys in life. It makes me believe life is full of cupcakes, flowers, and clean dishes. And it can be, but life is also messy and difficult and tiring, and that's not something to be ashamed of or ignored. And it's not something to be controlled. It's something to be recognized and acknowledged because it's what makes us human. Life is hard, but it's also sweet. Sweet and human and frail and real. 


I think a huge part of this comes from my heritage. Korean culture is very shamed-based one. You only invite people into your life when the house is clean, grades are good, relationships are stable, and blessings are high. So how do people with such a generationally embedded mindset respond to this? They work extra hard, they throw messes behind closed doors, they study day and night, and they put all their weight on these tangible, visible things. Everything else they hide. But this doesn't make people harder workers, it makes us a very fearful group of people. It turns people into a generation who cannot embrace their weakness, or humanness, and forces them to turn away from their identity, hide behind achievements. And I think it's time we talk about it. 

I'll start. 

This past week I didn't spend as much time with God and I found myself heavy with insecurity, impatience, and uncertainty. Fear was present in my thoughts, and although I couldn't quite pinpoint the reason for it or locate the root, it was there. I could feel its presence swallowing any truth or love that might have once been. My desperation for love and acceptance was obvious and loud. 

I learned that when I am not with God, I search for meaning and identity in things that were never meant to give meaning. Like relationships, clothing, grades, media. I noticed myself eagerly looking for someone to affirm me or give me any kind of signal that I was doing okay. 

Henri Nouwen said that we can give the gift of belovedness only insofar as we have claimed it for ourselves. We can only give love to the degree that we believe we are loved. I recognized this truth so much in my life this week, and how important it is for me to receive belovedness first, everyday.

People are writing for 31 days. At first, 
I didn't know if I had a single topic that could be discussed for such an extended period of time, but as I reflected on this week, I realized there is really only one thing to talk about. That underlying everything I say, I"m always saying the same thing, because I really only have one thing to say. It's about our belovedness, that God loves you.

We can hear it, say it, sing it a million times but it never really hits us the way it should. But it's the only thing that matters. It matters so much that it should transform everything about who we are... the way we think, talk, get ready in the morning, laugh... It should radiate from the inside out and bleed into everything we touch.


So that's what I want to write about for the next 31 days. I don't have a lot of answers, but I have a lot of thoughts, experiences, and I want to intentionally chew on it for the month of October. If you'd like to join with me on this journey, discover more of what our belovedness means and looks like in our lives, walk with me and we can learn together.
 :) 


FIND THEM HERE:
DAY ONE : THE GREATEST LOVE
DAY TWO : THE FATHER'S ARMS
DAY THREE : SMALL MIRACLES
DAY FOUR : WHISPERS
DAY FIVE : SHARE A LITTLE LOVE
DAY SIX : EMBRACE LONELINESS
DAY 22 : SIN RUNS DEEP
DAY 23 : I WILL NOT GO UNLESS YOU BLESS ME

J & E TURN THREE!

Saturday, August 31, 2013



Isn't this card hilarious? It's also a really accurate picture of the dynamic between E and I. [ Him being the annoying one, of course.... ;) ]

Today we are celebrating our three year anniversary. (!!! I know. Time flies.) The actual date is September 3rd, but that's on a Tuesday this year and I'll be at school and he'll be at work. Three years ago, the 3rd fell on Labor Day Weekend, which is when he picked me up from school and we became "official." So the weekend is what is sentimental to us, more so than the date.

I am taking the day off to enjoy this wonderful, wonderful man I do not deserve. :)
Happy 3 year anniversary, E.

HAPPY DOWNLOAD / 2

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Hello! This is week two of my "happy download" series. 
How did you like the first one? Did you download any?
( If you missed the first post, click here. )

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Since I already shared a desktop in my "let's talk about beauty" post, which is the one I'm actually using right now, I only have one for you guys today. But I promise it's a good one!

Featuring : "Be in love with your life. Every detail of it."    

DOWNLOAD INSTRUCTIONS:  Right click on the image below and click on "open in new tab." This will give you access to the image's full size. Once you are there, right click + save, or directly drag it onto your desktop. Then, make it your wallpaper! 1, 2, 3! (:


XO.

Pay it forward.

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Pay it forward.

Lately, God has been revealing that there is greater joy in loving others than there is in loving myself. I realize how much time and energy I spend on protecting myself — my image, emotions, reputation, pride, comfort level, etc. And the more time I spend on looking at myself, the less I can see others around me. But if I have faith and believe that my God is a God who protects and provides for me, then there is no need to be worrying about myself at all. Now suddenly I have so much more time to see others, help others, love others...

God said HE IS LOVE. And so if love is the language he understands and embodies, the more I love, the more I understand and know that God, too. Thank you, God, for loving me first, so that I can accept, feel, share, and learn more about love a little bit more each day.
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